In Retrospect
I’ve come to realise that most of my life has been and is still revolving around expectations.
I’ve always been expected to act a certain way, achieve a certain level, conduct something in a certain manner….so much so that this is how I’ve come to view people.
I expect people to follow a certain set of moulded expectations. Adults are always mature. Doctors are always intelligent. Friends should always be openly caring. Etc. And when they deviate, I feel disappointed, and I judge ever so harshly.
I guess this applies to relationships as well. Like how sometimes i feel like I don’t tell Alex enough and then I get quite upset about it. But is there the necessity to regale him with every single little thing in the first place? I just expect that I should tell him every tiniest detail. By tiniest detail I mean, “Oh my hard disk is full!” Which is wrong. Because that’s really not the point of the relationship and getting upset over that just because you EXPECT that it should be is just not right, is it?
Of course some measure of expectation is fair enough but…it’s give and take, right? Never lean too much on one thing, too many eggs in one basket?
Maybe someone was right in telling me that I do need to open my mind after all. And love people for who they are, and not because they act like how I hoped they would.
And maybe that way I’ll find myself disappointed less often. And then feel generally happier. Maybe?
runandhide said,
July 2, 2009 at 3:28 am
i agree! this is like putting into words what i cant express! when are you backkk… gss is like gonna be over alr!
passerby said,
July 8, 2009 at 5:34 pm
hello, been reading your blog for awhile, we have mutual friends. anyway i’ve been wanting to say this for ages,but i was afraid of looking stalkerish which i am now… meh. never mind. haha! hope you don’t mind.
anyway i just wanted to say that i think you sound like a really nice and sensitive and steady person and i must say even though i don’t know you i was very happy when you got into warwick! and i think i kinda know what u mean in some of your posts.im also in uk and i just want to say that in my case, these feelings and emotions come and go, but it always helps me when i think about the things in life that are going well for me. and uncertainty is well… unavoidable but it makes things all the more exciting! just be positive and always make sure that you love what it is that you’re doing, that’s what i say =) well that’s me, i’m sorry i’m rambling now oh dear me!! i meant well. ok i just think you seem nice and ought to be happy happy and proud of what you’ve got. don’t forget that ok? ok i’m off.
(:
mubbles said,
July 21, 2009 at 1:09 am
Hello passerby,
I read your comment when I was on choir tour! And it was at a time when i was feeling slightly down so I must say your comment really really made my day (:
Thanks so much for all you’ve said. And no I don’t think you are stalkerish; I confess I blogsurf quite a bit too and follow some blogs for no other reason than curiousity
Anyway I hope I find out who you are one day. Shan’t ask you now- don’t want to spoil the magic! But if we ever meet in person do tell me who you are, because I’ll remember for sure.
Hui Lin (: